Back to Work

I "officially" don't go back to work until after the new year but I am doing a couple trial days to get me acclimated. I went last Wednesday and I will go this Wednesday. Then after the first of the year, I will go three days a week. I feel so blessed to be able to just go back part time ... but it was still REALLY hard. I even get 12 weeks maternity (which most women will go back after 8) but it still does not feel like enough time. Last Wednesday, I was a complete mess. I wasnt that bad while I was at work (because I was busy) but before and especially after I was really emotional. When I was driving home from work, I just kept thinking, I missed a whole day of my Lee Bear. I dont know how I am going to do this. All of my working Mom friends say that it gets easier but I dont know. I am getting nervous about going back again tomorrow. I know it is probably good for the both of us but I just love being with him so much. The only thing that stops me from quitting work all together is knowing that on the days I work he is with my mom or Jason's mom. So I know he is in the best of hands. Hopefully, it will get better once I get in a routine. I will keep you posted.

For now, here is his two month pic!